October is a very special month of memories for my love and I. A year ago this month, was the beginning of our Love Story. It really started in June when he moved to Memphis to be our youth leader... but the love-dove/ mushy-gushy/ sweethearts part didn't come till October. ;)
So in case you dont know our story, here is a brief summary;) :
New Youth Pastor
W.D came to Memphis in June and preached a Youth Sunday for us.. my pastor was impressed and asked him to consider moving to Memphis for a year to be our youth pastor. W.D accepted. During this time, I was tormented and teased about the new single youth pastor. But I was determined I was not going to let anyone hinder my "friendship" with my youth pastor.
New Friend
As the months went on, we became really close friends and though I knew he liked me, I just wasn't interested in anything more than a friendship. But even through my rejection, he kept on being my friend, my constant friend. It aggravated me that someone I "didn't like" could care for me so much.
Cupid flys in September too.
Around September of 2010, I began to really question my feelings for him. We were constantly texting, constantly talking, and I really felt like he would do almost anything for me... my heart began to fall... not because I wanted it to... I felt like I had no control.
Falling.
And then it all flopped on me. October 1st, he told me he was going out of town to meet a "friend' and do a double-date with her and another couple. I pretended like I could care less. The young people would ask how I felt and I would just say, "Im happy for him!" But inside my heart was breaking... along with my will. That day before he left, he came and told me good bye and then honked at me as he pulled out of the parking lot. It was at that moment that I knew... I just lost my chance. I talked to him the whole way (hours) to the restaurant where he was meeting her. That night I went out to eat with my pastor and the young people and the subject came up about 'Bro. Hilton and his date'... W.D had sent me a pic (at my request) of him and his "friend" that night.. I showed everyone at the table and tried to make out like I was happy for them. But my pastor saw right through me. Gotta love pastors. I know I do. He looked at me and said, "Sis Amber, if you would have been nicer to him, you would have had a chance."
Broken.
Something clicked in my heart at that moment. It was like God was telling me, "If you don't let go of your will, you're gonna miss mine." I cried all the way home. I couldn't bear the thought of being in a relationship with someone else... and not being able to talk to him. Two very long days passed... and on Mon. October 4th he returned, but to my dismay, he wouldn't have anything to do with me. He later told me that he was so frustrated cause he left that weekend to try to "get over" me... and all he could think of was me the whole weekend. So when he came home, he determined to avoid me.
Superman
Then it all broke on Thursday of that week, I somehow let him know through a text message that I had missed him... and without telling him, I somehow let him know I kinda did care for him. Thursday night my family was going to eat Mexican at a restaurant by our house.. Mexican food was the last thing I wanted and I told W.D this. I also told him that I needed a superman to come rescue me. He then asked if it would be ohk if he came... I was happy that he was giving me another chance and agreed he could come.
New Chapter
When he walked in that night, it was like I was seeing him for the first time.. black dress shirt, blue jeans and black suede shoes... he literally made my heart melt. ;)
Hilton Headquarters
On Saturday, he asked me and a few girls to go help him buy a few things to decorate his bachelor pad. It proved to be a frustrating night for us girls... for them because half way thru the night they realized, the only opinion he really cared about was mine. ;) And frustrating for me, cause even though we were "talking", I wasn't sure whether to let him buy the things I liked and I would want in a home (which was his motives) if it ended up not being God's will... but then again I didn't want to have him buy things I didn't really like, just in case it was God's will!! ;) And I'm so glad I decided on that one. ;))
At Bahama Breeze the night we decorated the Hilton headquarters ;)
Its a Love story
As the days, weeks went by we began to fall sweetly into the will of the Lord... many happy tears were shed as we finally realized the miracle that had happened in our lives. As I realized I had finally found my better half, the one who could make me smile, the one I was completely comfortable with, the one who loved me for who I was... my bestfriend. <3
Nothing could wipe the smiles off our faces... Truly happy people;)
October 20th. Went to see "WICKED" at the Orpheum for our first date... It was amazing.
Love
October 26th we became an official dating couple with the blessing of our pastors and our parents.... =)
We were in this thing called LOVE. (thanks Kara for writing on our steps to help us remember;))
~Amber <3